Corat coret kehidupan AKU yang tak femes ni

She comes off as strong,
but maybe she fell asleep crying.
She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying..

Welcome 2013.

Today is my mum's 69th birthday. Selamat Hari Jadi Mak. You have been the greatest mum for me. I love u so much.

Dah 2 minggu adik kat kem tahfiz. Minggu lepas dia ada call tp minggu ni xder rasanya.

Another 2 more weeks. Persiapan sekolah dia pun lum beli lagi. Nak beli pun kene tunggu dia dulu. Masa kecik dulu seme benda Barbie now dah 15tahun xkan Barbie lagi.

Demam dah xder, batuk n gelema jer..tau tak gelema tu apa?

Tetibe rindu kat Qila. Lama lagi nak dengar suara dia, marah dia, jumpa dia...

Down with fever. Check out from the hotel at 5am. Straight to airport. Today flight direct from cgk-kul-pen. At about 3.30arrived in penang. Fever was very high, yet got to drive back to Arau. Sampai rumah terus pengsan...

P/s demam rindu?

Not feeling very well.

Ke Pasar Pagi Mangga 2,lewat sikit sbb ada kerja.. macet as usual. Sampai sana segala macam barang ada. Bought 10 pieces tee fif souvenir. Fashion mmg cantik tapa ada yg eceran ada juga yang grocir saja.

Dari Mangga 2 ke Monumen Nasional aka MONAS. Panas terik, sempat sambar mangga lemak manis walaupun tengah lapar. Setelah  sambar few souvenirs kami langsung ke Mangga 2 Square. Macam Sg.Wang Plaza tapi SWP lagi best and happening laa. Received 2missed call..mmg malas nak jawab call bila kat sini.

At last 3rd call aku jawab gak.. 'call back call back' it sounds familiar. 'Aunty rindu adik tak?' Soalan cepumas. 'Sbb rindu la aunty bawak diri jauh2'.. Alhamdulillah..best dapat dengar suara pun xper. Kejap jer we talked. Cukup untuk hilangkan rindu ni.

P/s am struggling..huh!

7am turun for breakfast. 1st time kene tunggu sbb coffee house could not cater for more guests. About 10mins later we manage to get a table. Foods were ok not much but enough for 'alas perut'.

Took Bluebird Taxi to Tanah Abang, journey tak la hauh sangat but 'macet' buat journer jafi almost 35mins. Cost us Rp50,000. Pusat Grocir terkenal di Jakarta. Kata orang tak complete lawatan tu kalau tak ke TA. Boss bought blouse and telekong. It is very cheap. Ikut hati banyak lagi nak beli tapi bag limited haha.

Dari Tanah Abang, we headed to Plaza Indonesia. Big mall with designers label..gosh i felt so small there. Price a bit higher than in KL. Had lunch in the food court. Ayam goreng so small compared to Melbourne.

Bought 2 t-shirts at HR shop. About 3.39 beratur tunggi taxi. 45minit gak la tp tak penat sebab dapat tengok pelbagai ragam manusia. Driver taxi ni tak tau lak jalan ke Aston Marina Ancol. Dah la salah jalan kalau nak u-turn akan amik masa berjam2, terpaksa la boss n i turun di seberang jalan. We had ro cross the road...giler teruk macetnya.

Naik bilik, solat bagai turun semula tuk ke Mangga 2 tapi langit mendung dan ada petir. Jam 5.30pm dah gelap di Jakarta ni. We decided to have dinner in hotel jer. Cost us Rp350,000,foods were ok. Tak dapat buat pape so duk dalam bilik jer tengok tv. Jam 11pm dah ngantuk.

Leaving on a jet plane.. but i know when i'll be back .

Still pray for her health n may God grant her wisdom and courage to face the life. AMIN.

Suka tengok series GG ni esp tgk Blair ..nak komen malas. Nak tau tengok sendiri.

Miss u much.

My health still not back to normal..or is this normal?

Malam tadi teringat kat Q hope she is doing fine there.

Love u much Q.

Missing her as always.

No, I am neither gonna talk about grilled salmon  nor the blueberry salsa here.. I am still confused with my feelings, often I swallowed it but this time it is hard to even chew it..

One thing I know for sure is, I don't want to love anyone, anymore, I'm content with the love I have now, will cherish it as long as I live... again it is not about love that I wanna rambling about..damn!.. I don't know what I want right now.

I guess the lyrics here express the feelings that i have now..

if I let you go
I will never know
What's my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I knowIf I let you go

P/s Please don't go.....

It has been a while since my last post.. hmmm been busy, super busy lately..
re-organizing my life, my finances and my social currency which has depleted tremendously hahaha..

I received a news, a shocking news this morning. dunno whether or not I have reacted accordingly,
It was  a shocked, it was drastic, my baby girl wants to start study in "sekolah pondok" next year.
Yes "sekolah pondok" somewhere in Hulu Terengganu.. (xder angin xder ribut she wanted to study there).

I love her, God knows I love her so much..but if this is what she wants, I "redha" and always pray for her success but know this baby girl.. I will always love you.,no matter how far you go, you will always be in my heart, my soul and my prayers. I will always be there for you.

p/s.. I wish you would stay....